So. I had my dissertation defense on Monday, which there was no way I wasn’t going to pass. Essentially I bludgeoned my audience with the sheer volume of data from my years as a graduate student. There was a horrified gasp from the audience as when I was looking for a slide of unpresented data to answer a question because I had hundreds of unused slides lurking behind my acknowledgements.
I overhauled my presentation 5 times over the last fortnight, the last being less than 24 hours before my defense. No to mention the data I presented at the end was generated last week.
I didn’t present as well as I would have liked. I really want to blame the lack of time I had to prepare and rail at my advisor for making me change everything at the last minute (really, not how I wanted to do it*), but it’s done, it worked, and I passed.
*Seriously, I’m a perfectionist. I’m always happier before than after because I am unable to change what has already happened. I was crying with stress the day before and the day after, from regret and knowing I could have done better. I didn’t get around to my slides where I thanked the people who were important to my grad student years, the only chance I had. *sigh*
…actually, maybe I’ll post them here. It won’t be as nice as showing the other grad students a window into my grad career (one of my favorite parts of defenses), but many who I wanted to thank weren’t able to attend, so this may be better too, especially since I won’t start crying while I talk about them. (Even the most composed students often break down in tears in the Kiss&Cry slides.)
So, uhm, I have some sewing updates too. But they’ll have to wait until my brain has recovered from shock.