This year I joined one official book club and one kind of unofficial book club with my teaching program. I thought it would be great way to gush over books that I love, live, and breathe and geek out with new friends.
But it was also a little isolating. Like I often feel that my perspective is unique. And not necessarily in a good way.
For instance, here
Me: I want to be Lyra’s friend. I hate Mrs. Coulter, even more than Umbridge.
B: I don’t like Lyra or Mrs. Coulter.
E: I don’t like Lyra, but I like Mrs. Coulter in terms of the role she was able to craft for herself.
S: I like Lyra and I have to respect Mrs. Coulter’s rise to power as a woman in this world.
C: Lyra was me when I was younger, might be because my parents are Lord Asriel and Mrs. Coulter.
I guess it’s good to push my horizons, meet all types of people, boom de yadda yadda. But it’s starting to activate my social anxiety and reinforce my perspective as an outlier.
Ok, so I started this post in …July… and now I just got an email about setting up another series for the book club. Someone introduced Chronicles of Narnia as a possibility. Which was then shot down by a few key members of the book club since they said once was more than enough. And now I kind of want to quit going to book club.
Guys, Chronicles of Narnia was the first book series I read multiple times. It holds a special place in my heart: I love it, have strong opinions about it (Book #1 is always “The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe), I have been trying to track down copies of the same publication version that I read in 3rd grade… there are sections that shaped who I am as a person.
I think Aslan has a line in “The Last Battle” saying that it does not matter whose banner you are under if you’re doing good: it is still good. Same for evil. And that has really been how I have tried to live my life.
I know Narnia is flawed. My friends and I bond over the ridiculousness of it, especially “The Last Battle.” C.S. Lewis’ Christian overtones are more like a rock concert decibel in the book. I consider myself an agnostic/atheist, but having this comparison in my life has helped me develop tolerance for different walks of life and religion.
And I don’t really want to bare this to people who talk over each other. Or try to sound smart/nitpick things. I’d rather celebrate things I enjoy.